The Wait. . .

The wait has taken its toll on me and all of us. It has been a grueling and exhausting roller coaster of ups and downs. I feel grumpy, depressed, anxious, and unmotivated to do anything. Then I will feel at peace for a while. There are lots of things that I could be doing or working on, but I am totally preoccupied with going to China and getting our daughter. It is getting harder and harder to wait as others pass us by and get their letters to sign, but we still wait. So far our agency has not been able to find out anything about our case, although they have asked several times. They have told us there is not a need to worry--that there is no rhyme or reason to the order in which China does things. They tell us that our letter will come. I hear over and over from other families who have been there/done that how the wait is worth it in the end when we will finally be united with our daughter. I am holding on to that fact, although I am sure I will be sad about the time we have missed with her even then.

There is a Chinese proverb that says, "One joy scatters a hundred griefs." I know from experience that this is true, so I pray it will come true once again when we meet our sweet Emma Mei.

I put that quote on the desktop of my laptop to remind me every day. I also put a picture of Emma on the desktop and added a bow to her hair to see what it would look like. I don't know if that makes me crazy, sentimental, or what. But here is my desktop, so you can see it too. All credit to the Shabby Princess for the awesome layout.

Comment posted by
at 5/2/2007 12:37:00 PM

Amy, I don't think the bow makes you crazy...it just means you are a Mama who can't wait to do cute things to your little girl's hair! I feel the agony of the wait and I continue to pray for grace and peace for you and God's perfect timing. So keep on putting bows in her hair and keep on dreaming about her...it will help keep you from going crazy!! :) Love you all, Tracie

Comment posted by
at 5/2/2007 7:19:00 PM

Amy- you have so many joys to look forward to- the griefs will surely be scattered. I am keeping all of you in my prayers.

Comment posted by
at 5/2/2007 10:06:00 PM

Concerning the wait... I work with a pastor here who is adopting a little girl from Guatamala. They are just starting their final leg of their journey. Last week they went down to visit her, they spent a week with her and then had to say good-bye at the end of the week. What heartache and grief! It has been a privaledge to watch them and you go through the process of rescueing an orphan and having a heart of God. Below is their last week's visit in a nutshell... check it out and know others feel your pain and long to have their child like you!
www.adventuresinadoption.blogspot.com.

Comment posted by
at 5/2/2007 10:43:00 PM

We feel your pain. Every day we pray it will be the day, but I keep consoling myself with the thought that it WILL come and it's all under control. I've been dreaming at night that you got our sweet Emma and I wake up and think, oh, that didn't really happen did it. Her hair looks pretty with the bow, I like it. We love you very much and pray it will be TODAY!

Comment posted by Rhonda
at 5/3/2007 12:02:00 AM

I saw a little Chinese girl in the paper Sunday (GR Press), and I couldn't get her cuteness of my mind as I thought of what Emma will look like and be like. We pray daily for you, for that letter, and for Emma. We hope this quote will be true for you as you struggle waiting AND after Emma comes home: "Friendship improves happiness and abates misery, by the doubling of our joy and the dividing of our grief.” - Marcus Tullius Cicero

Comment posted by
at 5/4/2007 1:38:00 AM

I can only imagine the frustration of waiting to finally embrace your little girl. I love the bow! I know that when you hold her for the first time that none of this will matter anymore so just keep holding on and know that we all love you and Emma and are praying for you constatly.